The pain of loosing your child

Loosing custody and contact with your child is worse than the pain you would feel from loosing a child to a death, at least when you loose a child to a death you know where they are. You still grieve, you still miss them and by all means it is hard on a mother to loose a child that way. But when you have living children that you are not a part of their everyday life you worry, you cry, you pray, your mind is constantly on where they could be, what are they doing, what are they having for dinner, did school go good today or bad, did they see something silly today to make them laugh, did they think of you today?

I am thinking of you boy's now and every minute of every day. Keep strong, be good and always know I LOVE YOU LIKE NO ONE EVER HAS OR WILL I AM YOUR MOMMA